Friday, October 12, 2018

Week 4: Deconstructing FEARS!

I finished reading Launching Leaders by Steven A. Hitz this week. I learned the importance and value of great mentors in our life's journeys, especially in entrepreneurship. 

I found the exercise of creating/identifying my Core Values to be more enlightening than expected. Though my assignments aren't exactly easy, I'm looking forward to more enlightening exercises. I think this is really good for me. 
My top Core Value was POISE. This is from my work on that...
My highest-ranking Core Value is to be a Poised Woman. To be poised is to always behave in a composed and self-assured manner, always tempering or bridling any unkind word or thought, choosing to act gracefully and tactfully, and never to be acted upon or give away control of my will or actions. I will maintain poise and confidence by choosing virtuous and lovely words, thoughts, actions, and endeavors, and ever choosing to act and not to be acted upon. Being a poised woman is in harmony with the teachings of the gospel of Jesus Christ. 2 Nephi 2:26 has helped teach me that I have been redeemed from The Fall by a loving Savior, Jesus Christ. The redemption has given me the freedom to choose good over evil, to act and not be acted upon. The thirteenth Article of Faith teaches me that as a faithful Latter-day Saint woman, I do need to seek after that which is virtuous, lovely, of good report, or praiseworthy.

The Q's & A's from my worksheet...

1. If you pursue your calling with discipline, intentionality, and the help of fellow travelers, what are the chances that your worst case scenario will really happen?

The chances are truly 50/50. They either will or they won't. It sounds like a cop out answer, and it sort of is, but hear me out. IF discipline, intentionality (is this even a real word?), and the help of fellow travelers were 100% sure things, then my worst fears would be completely unfounded. But the reality is that I am my own worst enemy. Discipline and I don't always go hand in hand. I have a road behind me absolutely knee-deep in grand intentions, but I'm not where I'd like to be just yet. My fears aren't exactly irrational. (Isn't there a saying about good intentions and a road to Hades being paved with them?)

2. As you look at your list of fears, what themes emerge? What is at the core of what you really fear? Financial ruin? The judgment or disapproval of others? Physical harm? Endangering the ones you love? Embarrassment?

It seems to me that should my fears come true, they'll confirm that nasty little voice inside that tells me I am a failure, that I never could do it, and that I was foolish to try. I want Danny to be proud of me for what I can do.

3. What is the risk of taking no action – not following your calling? How do you plan to deal with fear when it pops up on your entrepreneurial journey?

The risk of taking no action is minute, except that I will feel like the confirmation is here: I failed because I didn't even really try. I plan to go to my knees in prayer when I feel fear. Every day I pray for guidance, strength, and miracles regarding these very real fears. I will go to my husband and mentors for assurance, guidance, and TLC if and when it's needed.

(Mose Schrute personifies all fear.)

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